Come play my game

Its been so long, what I had once thought would be my account of this journey hasn't been much of an account at all. In the time I haven't written I've had a couple of crazy times. One of which would be ROckness where I was unable to make my legs walk. A time I didn't belive I was near but when I tried to get myself walking I just couldn't walk any length. Dougie did his hero impression and carried me to a point where I was able to enjoy the festival without having to move. However on my return to Glasgow I was admitted into hospital and had a couple of turning blue moments which scared the nursing and doctor staff a lot more than it scared me. I also had a visit to Newcastle regarding new lungs, I was staying at Dougies parents and we ended up in a helicopter and a plane on our journey down south. Mum and dad arrived before me and the rest of the day went fine. I reacted how I wanted to- no craziness just calming. It wasn't my time, one of the lungs were damage

It's 8am on a sunday and I'm awake, with on sore jaw and having had the worst sleep in chrisingdom. I spent the evening with Tracey and the kids yesterday after going round the pubs with Sara and getting permission to go round them next friday for the fundraiser. So we have 8 definates and about 3 very possibles who we need to revisit to speak to the main hounchos. So my dream, this being the reason decided to write this. I was in some strange place which ended up being Lenzie but it started in a supermarket with doug and we met his mates gemma and callum. Then when we got home the place was falling apart, then the roads started splitting and lava was underneath, we had to jump big bits, then keep running because walls etc were all splitting around us. Then we ended up in Lenzie and the Church was really visible, I was now with my mum and dad and my dad was shouting for us to run and jump. So I looked it up and heres what I found: Fire:To dream that a house is on fire, indicat

So it's Thursday, I'm sitting with my feed in and considering doing some college work- funnily enough I have been distracted and decided to write in my blog as its been a while and my last blog never even got completed. Anyways, at the weekend Dougs and I went down to London to visit his mates ALi and Reiki. They live in Finchley and in a lovely little house too. I was very impressed. Dougie drove most of the way down as I had, had a very busy Thursday/Friday. The girls had their dance show on THursday/Friday and I went to watch it on the thursday, they were brilliant but I also had to spend 2 hours watching children who I had no clue who they were. But worth it really to see my two stunning girls on the stage. On friday I was doing bellcom massages and then I collected the girls, did their hair and makeup and Dougie and I drove them out to Motherwell Civic centre. Then I took them inside and got them ready. In London we went to Camden on the Saturday, Rieks and I spent a long

I am sitting with the mother of a hangover, but so happy about it because I had a cracking night last night. Unfort a few folk had dropped out and I have to admit I was a bit down about that but there was no need to be because the ones who came along made my night brilliant. We went to Scotkart laser tag in clydebank and played three games of running about lasering each other. Even Sara was amazing and wore flats- SHE WORE FLATS!! And ran about, she wont admit it to anyone else but she loved it. Our first game was every man for themselves, then we split into two teams and lastly we split into three- it was meant to be two but Alex and Dougie(the top two scorers) decided to start their own wee team. I dont wanna say they're competitive but hell yeah lol. Afterwards the dudes dropped us off at mosquito and we started the drinking. I had an absolute belter of a night, the banter was fabulous, I got to meet eilidhs beau Paul, who seemed like a great guy and I got to c

Where do I start, it had been six weeks(as my sister pointed out to me on wednesday when she came to my house while I coloured her hair) since I had been in Newcastle for transplant assessment and I must admit I was starting to get pretty worried that they could not find a suitable mix of antibiotics to blitz the bugs or that my tissue was dodgy or just summit. Well weirdly enough I got a call a couple of hours later to say that was me being listed. I felt a bit bubbly then happy then actually pretty terrified. But none of those emotions lasted long. I'm not really feeling too much about the transplant. I do talk a lot about how different things will be when I am actually able to breathe easier. It rather obvious at the moment as I am on IV's due to my lungs being in a rather shitty state when I went to clinic last friday. So at the moment I'm feeling a tx would be splendid. I'm sure on my good days though I will be hoping its some time before I hear from them. It does

I sit here typing this in DOugies living room in Onich. We're here for the day to visit his mum and dad and he has already been out being handy man doo sawing down branches from a tree 10-15ft above the ground. Last night it was susans birthday bash, so we went to Mings in Cumbernauld. I was giving Sara and David a lift out also as DOugs and I were leaving straight after dinner. Anyway start of what turned out to be an hours drive for somewhere that was 6 minutes from the house. Sara thought she had a fair idea where it was so we followed that idea, only to turn on the sat nav when we couldn't find it and head in what we thought was the direction of the resturaunt. Turns out it was on home and we ended up going through lots of dodgy back roads and starting back in GLenboig- much hilarity constued and we finally did the full 6 minute trip to the japanese. It was amazing, and pics will follow of them setting alight to our meals while cooking infront of us. Best bits had to be dav

It's FRiday the 13th today and I have had one of the laziest days ever, lying in bed feeding myself up hoping I'll have put on weight for monday. Last week was great, I did dougs mate Vicky's hair in college and I was mighty happy with the outcome as it looked brilliant. On Friday we went for dinner at john and fi's house and John had made a curry which I have to admit I was sad about having looked forward to getting a tandoori chicken tikka for the whole week. However, once I had tasted it, I ate my words and all the curry! It was yummy and he made his own nan breads and it was utterly gorgeous! We headed to chinaskis after to meet Owen and Gerrie, who DOug and I had, had a drink with before heading down for food. It was a great wee night, nice to catch up with DOugs mates who have really become mates of mine too. They are all such smashing guys and it's always a pleasure spending time with fi and exchanging gossip. I awoke on the saturday and thankfully didn't

So I finally go my letter through for my transplant assessment. Monday 16th February, the same day I am due to collect my brand new sparkly Toyota Yaris. So I've sorted to arrive in Newcastle for 1pm and in my sparkly new VE-HICLE. It took a lot of looking about and some lovely table work from DOugs but the Yaris was still small, lovely inside, lots of boot and back seat space and most importantly lots of storage space. So how am I feeling about the assessment. I had hoped I would have got a little more notice but nope, so the trip dougs and I had planned will have to be planned for another day. I went into college yesterday and told the girls, I figured the more I tell the less scary it becomes, but doesn't seem to have happened. Last night I was having a mini pity party, taking it out on my lovely man but I'm just scared that I may not be a suitable candidate. Then where do I go?? I wait, until a cure is found which probably won' happen within my lifetime so instead I

Almost at the end of January, where the heck did that month go??? Well college is getting heated up and I have a lot of work to do but I have been building up my confidence in colouring and cutting and feeling much more happier with my work and not doubting myself so much which is nice. On another note I find I've been keeping busy,between doing treatments and spending a lot of time with dougs and college I rarely find I'm properly home. Though I did buy some lovely pictures to put up about this place. Must get some photos of the house to show you . Its funny I'm sorting the house out but my sister is more than likely going to move in here next year and I will be out with DOugie all going well. Today I have been feeling rough but I'm going up to the hospital tomoz, DOugs has had a stonking cold and I thought I had saved myself from it by doubling up my anibiotics but the past day or two I have been feeling PANTS. SO I@m up tomoz and hopefully they will give me some mag

And again its been some time but what a year 2008 was. I sat driving to collect Dougie on Hogmanay thinking that in March I never dreamt I would have seen 2009 come. I cried a little and was so thankful for the amazing Christmas I got to spend with my family. It was idealic, dad had got a home in Oban for us to live in for the week, right on our dorrstep was the loch and it was beautiful. We were all within the one house. Tracey, Paul, Julie, Caity, Joshua(T.bo was in South Africa) mum and dad and not once was a ross word said. I had an absolute ball and find it very hard to believe this year will ever be topped. On Dec 27th Dougie came to collect me to go to his parents but on my arrival the house was way to quiet for me. His family is lovely but it wasn't the same to be without the noise of the little ones. So on the 29th we headed back to Oban for the day which was fab. New year was great too, we went round to Don's (fiona's mans) for some lasagne and goodies and banter